Thoughts Of Daddy

Started having fantasies about other men a few years ago, never romantically, just sexual. Don't remember when but I found stories about dad's and sons and everything kind of snowballed from there. I started to think about my dad constantly. Imagined various ways to let him know, never doing any of them. Eventually bought a dildo and always thought of him when I used it, wishing it was his warm cock sliding inside me. For a while I would sneak outside his room at night and ride it just next to the door moaning softly about how I want to get him hard in my mouth and taste his cum, how i want him to fuck me hard and cum inside me. Always wished he would catch me doing that, but it hasn't happened yet. I'm not brave enough to just out and tell him about what I want him to do to me. I know it's wrong to want this but no matter how hard I try my mind always wanders back to those thoughts.
Writing this out and telling someone, even anonymously is a huge relief. I hope someday to feel him.