Did He Or Does He Want It?

I’ve always fantasized about my father fucking me. He always walked around in his underwear, never tried to cover up his big dick when I was around. Used to spend hours in the bathroom in the morning while I had to get in there, he’d never cover his cock up. Sometimes he’d be holding it down while sitting next to me on the toilet because ik he would get hard looking at my ass. I’d never go out of my way to wear a bra or just underwear through the house because I know he looked and it always made me wet. He walked up and caught me masterbating to porn on our family computer one night when I was 14, I think he stood there for a minute before I noticed him. He didn’t say a word just walked away and I got even wetter and more horny. He’d lay on the couch in his underwear had to know his cock was hanging out the side, had to be purpose when I’d walk by. Would you let your cock hang out for your daughter to see? Was he secretly waiting for me to grab it, or catch me looking at it? Does he want to fuck me? He never tried to fuck me but I wish he did. I hate him, he’s put me through bad things and abusive all my life. But never fucked me like I needed. Ik he’s kinky and into dominating I’ve heard his moans and caught him on the computer. What do you think?