Help!

So… I was a virgin up until last night. Only problem was that I didn’t lose my virginity to a girl, but to one of my guy mates. He’s gay and we were drinking a lot last night and it just happened. Went from laughing and messing about to him sucking me off and me fucking his ass.

Was so drunk I didn’t even remember it this morning till he showed me a vid of him sucking me.

Don’t know how I feel about this? What you think?