First Time, Not Impressed. What's The Big Deal?

At 36 I am single, always single, virgin in mind and body. A man I met at a work conference in last month, he asked me a series of personal questions, name, rank and serial number. I didn't know him, told him I had never had a romantic relationship and was not looking for one. He asked why not, but more importantly two strangers in the night, he would do me and no one would be the wiser.

I agreed and let him into my room. It, I use the word on purpose, IT was not worth my time. IT was an intrusion more than a penetration, IT was messy, far messier than I imagined. I was not experienced, but I was not ignorant, the internet and literatures informed me. His penis was not what I thought, a lot smaller. His strength and grip did surprise me, I wasn't expecting that. I didn't even feel ashamed of having him see me naked.

So, what's the big deal? Seriously.