My Gay Experiences

First time I was 10 friend who was older he was like 15 had me kiss his cock thats all that happened then a little while later a family member would shower after work then take a nap supposabley I was still around 10 he would always have me lay down with him and covienantly his robe would come un done exposing his erect penis....hed guise my hand to it and I was courious after kissing my friends penis so Id rub his cock and balls and after several different times he eventually came while i was rubbing his cock..I had no idea what had happened .This must have spooked him as he rolled over and never again was I asked to lay down with him...then as I got older like 14 or 15 a cousin and I would masturbate in front of each other I even unsuccessfully tried to fuck him but I didnt know how but then he put his cock between my ass cheeks he never entered me but he came on me as I also did he. We did that until we were 16 then girls came along my first experience with a girl was a friend of mine I was taking her home she had just fucked my friend and she sucked my cock before I dropped her off....I didnt really like it that much and later on I was like 18 or 19 I drove to a near by town saw a guy walking in a hotel parking lot and I asked him if he wanted to smoke a joint he did....we went into his room and we smoked a joint and I asked him could I suck his cock. He obliged but couldnt get hard so it was embarrassing to say the least so it went years and there was some experimentation from time to time then I met this guy he was a manager at Tractor supply. we met through craigslist and one night I went to his place and as I sucked his cock it kept throbbing and getting harder until he rolled me onto my back grabbed my ankles and fucked the living daylights out of me....best sex of my life. we did that a few times then he moved I was in my early 50"s then...then the next time was an older man than me he wanted his cock sucked with a stipulation that I would lick his balls and Id swallow his cum..I had never done that. I said we will see so I was sucking his cock and licking his balls he was thick and loved it..when he started to cum I sucked and swallowed every drop It was amazing...That was my last time other than a fried who sucks my cock from time to time...I long for that man that will fuck me hard and then force his cock down my throat and cums in me....