Caught In A Spider's Web I Can't Escape From And Wouldn't If I Could

I am the HR supervisor in a company of a thousand employees. My job requires that I monitor sexual harassments among other duties. I prepare training which is scheduled so that all employees receiving training once a year (even during Covid which was virtual). I know the rules.

My boss is an aggressive old man who can't keep his hands off of me. He touches my pussy with his finger. He reaches around me from behind and cups my breasts. He kisses me on the lips. He has fucked me and when he does he tells me that I was born a bitch and I deserve to get fucked. He has tied pay and bonuses to cock sucking. Everything you are told is wrong he does with me. I have never had a complaint brought to me by any other women in the company. He touched my pussy in front of another female employee and forced me to tell him in front of her that my pussy was his and that he could fuck me whenever he wanted. He did this on purpose when i was trying to leave (that was before Covid).

I have used a sex therapist to help me understand why i bend to his will. Bottom line he has my number and I see myself as his. I took three weeks off to get some space and went with a friend (female) to Hawaii where her family lives. I called him everyday. I tossed and turned at night. My friend encouraged me to talk to these two guys we met at a bar and she was ready to have them take us with them. I didn't get in the car, the worst sense of guilt overcame me and stood my ground and said no. My friend didn't go either and we went back to her parents' to mope.

After these last eighteen months, at first having to be at home alone crying about not being with him, and later moving to an apartment closer to him I have had to accept that I am a pleaser and bitch that deserves what I get, al old man's fuck doll. I refuse to admit that I am in love with him, how could I? Love is not that. I know he has power over me and I am caught and I can't escape and I have to accept my fate. When he sees me he kisses me and grabs my behind and I put my arms around his neck because that is what he wants.

If I wasn't an HR professional I suppose I wouldn't know what I do. But what I preach I don't do, I suck the boss man's cock and get a pat on the head and give him pussy whenever he wants.