I Wish I Had Known Earlier That I Was A Lesbian And Not A Frigid Girl

I really don't know what category to use for this confession. I am a 38 year old professional in a position of responsibility in my company. I have 13 employees under me, mostly women. Because I hire women.

When I was growing up I struggled with wanting to be around the boys. Girls bored me. I went to college to get an Mrs. degree. I got married the weekend after graduation and my husband fucked a baby into me and I had a baby nine months later (a second 13 months after that). I was so lucky to be married and all that. But I hated it, when my husband grabbed me I hated it, being under him I hated, and getting pregnant, the whole experience was awful. Having my daughter and son early before I figured out I wasn't cut out for it is the reason I have two kids. I would not do it again.

In the meantime, while I was rising in my career I met a young woman from Monroe, Louisiana. Dark, long hair. Slim. Small breasts but when she wore pants she had a very obvious pronounced vulva. I went to the bathroom with her many times and I saw her arrange her panties under her skirt and I did everything I could not to fall on my knees. As it turns out she also had the urge and one day I got to suck on her tits and eat her out. My first time, and my best time, eating her pussy was best thing I had ever done. Afterwards when I was sitting with her I tried to explain to her what it was like when my husband fucked me. Words failed me. It is something you have to put up with if you are married.

I work with men on my level. That is where I feel comfortable. I hire women because I like having women as subordinates and I especially like attractive women to look at. I won't hire a woman I won't eat. If they aren't lesbians I pass. I like my employees to wear skirts and dresses and I like my employees wearing sheer panties, I like it when they pull their skirts up to show off their new panties, I like sleeping with more than one of them and having parties. We are a department of lesbians for lesbians and we party together.

My husband, who does not live with me, takes care of my kids. He is against my lifestyle, calls me a bull dyke and prohibits me from having a lesbian around our kids. He is the only man that I will lower my pants for, he gets his piece from time to time. He doesn't mind fucking a lesbian, but he doesn't like lesbians around him. I have never sucked his dick, I can't. As far as sex, it is better if he takes it from behind, laying on my back looking at the ceiling is not my thing. I would like him to find some woman that he wants around to fuck and live with, but he isn't interested. If he gets hard up enough I have to lower my pants for him.

If I had realized at 21 that I was a lesbian and not a frigid girl I would be better off. As it is, I am where I am, I'm married because he won't give me a divorce, and I have two kids.