BDSM Her

My girlfriend and I have started to try BDSM and I was very shy on starting it because I was still very un- educated in that stuff so I was worried that I wasn’t going to be able to perform for her and god I have done my research and I now just want to destroy her and use her like a toy and it has made me go from enjoying very passionate sex to wanted to also have a dark side and look at her like a tool in bed “lovingly of course” and just use her like she says she wants. I have learned how to make cuffs from rope and ways to hog tie and secure her down with ropes and I just want to tale turn on each end of her and whip her and spank her till her ass is read and I want to hear her moans and crys as she takes my cock. But i’m so scared to tell her the things that I want to do to her because she might think i’m weird and That i’m going a little too far into all of it