Had My Cousin

it was back when I was 14, I was attending a wedding ceremony. we stayed at my uncle's home because it was way too far from our home. There lot of guests so we, the teenagers were told to sleep in same room. We talked and played uno for a time, then off to sleep in same bed e were like 14y old both. Other people in room included her brother, and one more cousin. Her brother left soon after that soon after that, I woke up and couldn't sleep, next to me was my cousin, out of nowhere, I felt urge to touch her. After some initial hesitation, I touched her belly over her clothes. She didn't move. I kind of massaged her belly for a time. And later moved my hand under clothes. I massaged her belly for a while. And got no respond so far. After that, I got up a little and kissed her lips. I licked her lips for a while and that's when I got her first respond. She woke up, but I insisted on kissing and grabbed her boobs from under the shirt. She tried pull me away so I did. She inquired me but I didn't respond. After some time, I started touching her again, and basically threw my hand away. I was dissappointed but I tried again. Same thing. I tried again and she was probably annoyed. So she turned her back towards me. However, it proved to me blessing. I begin to touch my dick against her ass. And I also moved my hand under her pyjama, this probably haamd then lowered her PJs but she turned away, and said some effect on her. I rubbed her pussy for a while(no panties) She turned towards me this time and asked what's your problem. I remained silent. However, after a minute or two, she again talked, saying we can kiss and fondle but no sex. We begin to kiss passionately and ofc fondle. I removed her PJs and said that I wanted to touch her pussy, no sex. She agreed. I begin to finger her after few time. She seemed to enjoy me. While doing this, I got over her and she didn't resisted. I had my dick already out so no issue with me, I I spread her legs a little but not too much and pushed my dick inside her. It was dark but I noticed that she felt pain and hugged me as tight as she could. I pressed harder and went in her all the way. She begin to cry a little and whispered me that it hurted he.r. I waited for a while before I started to fuck her in rythms. She still complained about pain but I didn't pay much attention. I fucked her for 5 minutes I guess and came inside her. It was probably the biggest cum in my life. I was actually worried why I can't stop cumming but couldn't pull out as it felt too good. I held deep inside her not thinking what could happen because of it.
Realizing the gravity of situation, I jumped away from her. Idk how she handled. But she thankfully didn't get preg. Thankfully the third cousin didn't wake up. But I fucked her next year anyways. That's a confession for another time.