Herpes

Herpes is shameful when u get it. Had I known I wouldn't hv gone to the doc to be embarrased as to what it was hurting my penis I thin had to register in the database without a choice I went home devastated. At the time I was like by who? As I researched it turned out u could hv it dormant for years before it disclosed itself. I took medication on flares and over time decided to do away as someone may find it on me knowing its for herpes
Over time I get outbreaks on the penis and it takes 1-2 weeks to go away
I had sex with many females but I narrowed it down to 2 girls then over time down to 1 of those two as I found she lived to do terrible things behind people's back. Make tea and spit in their tea she made great sweet tea. She sd people would ask dam that's good tea what you put in it shed say spot and they shuck it off but she revealed she ment it and when she says she means something I learned to take her word. Ok too many other facts to write but I hv my strongest hunch she gv it to me and she would I hv a secret you'll never know. So anyway dating her over time if I got an outbreak I'd make sure to full her like when the sores are open but bearable after afew days and healing. She was a mean evil bitch when upset over nothing and those times of I had a flare I made sure to stick it in her as she cant feel it nor could i as they were open but didnt burn after afew days healing up. So I'm like you have a secret bitch so do I .
I feel like she would be the type not to disclose this and so since I know I've given it to her raw countless times then why hasn't she ever come to me saying hey I hv herpes? Most likely because she had it fr the start and prob did menthe same. Had her sores inside her vaginal which I couldn't feel. Shes long gone has several boyfriends since and has still to date not contacted me saying she has herpes so I think its logical to say she gives it to other guys not giving a fuck and one of her early victims was me. I dont know if theres light causes of it but my flares aren't as frequent like 6 months or more can pass vs months to afew months and I dont take the med they prescribe for decades. I also never had a girl come to me with the claim as I always make sure to be non flaired tho they say it doesn't matter but I believe it does as I've dont this for years.
Also I had a girlfriend cheated on me bigtime broke my heart way before herpes degraded me humiliated me.
One nite we crossed paths years later as I was infected. She liked my new car new I had money and wanted to hook up. Coincidentally I had sores open were like 4 days healing but still open. She sd her dad asked.. Where u going tonight she sd with so n so He sd What?! You should stay away fr him plz stay away asked her to promise and she did. She totally made me to be the bad guy on our breakup so thats why he did. She lied even to him then to cover her princess ass.
So I gave it to her raw for the biych that she was. She couldnt feel them she even sucked in low light and I guess her juices lubricated them well lol In my head I was like this is for you and your damn cluless father. I called her a while after and she didnt want anything to do with me. All she sd was, I went to the dr the next day, period.
Nothing further. I was like did it hit her that quick or was it coincidence she sd that? Eitherway she ruined 7yrs of my life and more trying to heal without any care and so im glad she can never get rid of me and most likely shes hush hush as she has has 5 different boyfriends online and a failed marriage with two kids and looks old as fuck and I'm older than her and I look great! Couldnt happen to a more deserving b. Revenge is best served opened sore. hahahaha