I Feel Depressed

I feel depressed internally. I feel everyone hates me and that i’m ugly. Im 21 and moved into a apartment with my girlfriend for a year now and I feel like I’m worthless for her. I feel she hates me because I al who I am. I got really depressed and my first job when I moved here and I quite that job and i’m just starting this new one. I’m a EMT I feel depressed when I get home because I see really bad stuff at work and lots of emotions and then I come home and I can’t let it out because I don’t want my girlfriend to see it and it feels awful. She has anxiety and gets mad at me a lot because I don’t do the dishes or wash the clothes sometimes. We got in a fight because I haven’t cleaned the cat litter and I clothes the bathroom door locking the cats out and they peed on some clothes laying on the ground by the dryer and I keep saying I need help doing the dishes and clothes and picking up the house but it should be my job because I haven’t started work yet and I feel like a worthless dead beat. I went to drive her to school so she would not have to walk across campus since I was home and she out of anger said that I was stup!d and childish and worthless and can’t do simple tasks and that im more of a baby than her family friends child and she sometimes says that i’m fat and ugly and I believe her and it makes me depressed and I feel lonely. I moved out of my home state to come be with her and I lost all of my friends so im here in this new state with no friends but her and she must be right. I’m worthless and everyone hates me. I’m such a moron and ugly and have no friends amd i’m a loser.