A Woman's Place Is Beside A Man, This Man Is In My Life

You might say I was overwhelmed by him. Smart, really, really smart. Wise, older men always surprise you with their wisdom. Rich, he invented a process while in college that he sold to a major corporation which continues to pay huge annual dividends. I could not blink fast enough, how can anyone have so much money? His hands. When he holds me I melt. When he uses his hands on me, I surrender all control. And when he mounts me, that's why I'm alive.

I know it looks all wrong, being in love with a man who literally could be my father. But I can't control why or how I'm in love. I am. I think women do fall in love with a man who would be the best father for her children, I know I think of that. Someone has to be the man to get me pregnant, why not him? I want to have his babies.

I struggle with these feelings. Not about being in love, or surrendering to him in bed, or being his pet girl. I struggle with being 23 and wanting to be a man's wife, being his woman, being one of the mothers of his children. And he being THE father of my children. Yes, I read an essay on taking a man's hand and walking by his side, wherever he goes. I take his hand as he leads me through my path of life. Man is made to have a woman at his side, as a woman I am here to say I will take his hand and walk by his side.