Showoff

I am struggling with exhibitionism. I don’t want to expose myself to anyone who doesn’t want to see me. But I want strangers to see me naked, to see me masturbate and wait eagerly for me to cum. To look at my explicit photos when they masturbate, wishing I were there with them in person.

I’ve posted pictures anonymously, and I’ve been on cam, but I’m married and my wife doesn’t know, and I’m guilty and ashamed. Not because of what I have done, because I am proud of my body and sexuality, but because it’s a sort of infidelity.

I’ve let guys watch me cum, and jerk off to pictures of their wives, or their own hard cocks. I’ve let couples watch me as they fucked. I’ve let gay men suck each other while they watched me shoot hot semen all over my own body.

I wish I could just jerk off and be done, like a normal person.