Fantasies About Being Used While Transitioning

I'm a 22 year old gay trans man that can't stop thinking about being fucked before and after my surgeries. I'm arranging for top surgery but am satisfied by the amount my clit has grown into a dick and like the idea of having an extra hole to be used so I'm just going to have my tubes tied. I sometimes think about being groggy waking up from anesthetic and feeling my boy pussy being slammed as I open my eyes and see doctors fucking me like a doll, leaving me dripping in cum and blood. All I can do is moan as one whispers in my ear, "We have to make sure you can't get pregnant, real sure. We'll breed your boy pussy and plant our seed deep inside you and see if it takes." All of them taking turning pumping me full of cum as it leaks out, dripping onto the floor until another fucks it back inside me calling me a good boy for squeezing his cock so tight despite the river of semen flowing out of me. And before my top surgery they'd tie me down to a table, a machine pounding both my holes to stimulate me as they hook my swollen penis and nipples up to pumps. "All the milk has to be drained before the process, just relax." My body shaking and skin burning from the hours and abuse, orgasm after orgasm while doctors and nurses take notes and watch me. As the hours go by their professional front disappears and some stoke each other, muttering what a good cow I make. Sometimes taking it upon themselves to get right close and cover my face with cum and tell me I'm a good little boy toy and to moan louder for them. And when I pass out from the process and wake up from surgery the recovery nurses can't help but take advantage of me in my immobile state. So I lay covered in bruises and stitches as once again I'm made into the whore I am. I beg them to fuck my ass and my already dripping c**t, anything to mask the ache in my chest. Beg them to fill me up with cum, I promise I can't get pregnant I just need to be filled, please.