Straight Feeling

I admit I've not had sex with a girl yet. I really want to. I put straight because I don't feel gay, I'm not attracted to men, I only want a girl or woman, that is the root of all my fantasies. For the past week I gave into a church minister. He's 28 and he sucked me and he fucked me. He has fucked me mostly, but honestly his cock is so small (about 3" long, and about half inch thick three quarter on his best day). He has fucked me and cum in me, but it's almost like there is nothing inside me when he does it. In return I jack myself on him or he sucks me. I don't feel attracted but do like the naked sex, and luv cumming. I want a girl, in the meantime I am getting fucked daily sometimes twice a day