If I'm Not Crying, I'm Not Cumming

I'm a pain freak sexually. I get off on pain. When I used to get fucked by boys in my youth I never came. Then an older woman was my first lesbian sex and she hurt me. She would pinch and squeeze my nipples, till I thought she would pull them off. She would use suction on my nipples and leave them extended over an inch long for hours till I was crying, then swatting at my pussy she made me cum. I went to her and one of her friends with whom I had sex to get off, I let guys fuck me but couldn't get what I wanted. One guy realized what I wanted and rolled me over and forced me into anal sex. That was super painful as he was really huge down there, but I didn't cum.

I finally met the guy I married. He not only understood he took me to new waves of pleasure. Now after12 years, I still get off to his abuse. My boobs, what little I actually have, mostly long nipples now, he has bruised almost all the time. I have some scars on my bottom from whippings with his belt, I get brutal insertion, including his whole hand in both my lower holes, and I get off everytime. Every part of me is open to him, and I found the right guy for me. Many times at nude beaches, or even a clothed beach when I'm in a skimpy bikini, she has writing on me to humiliate me in front of all the others.

I found my love, and occasionally he sends me to my first women, full of his cum, which angers them at me. I love it, I love pain, in order to cum I need the mistreatment, and abuse. If I'm not crying, most likely I can't cum.