I Feel Gross

I’m a father with a gay son I fully except him but I do make gay jokes from time to time he’s alright with it lately he’s been getting more open being shirtless around the house and not trying to hide boners too much but it’s guy stuff ya know
This morning I was gonna wake my son up but I saw his morning wood and I got harder than a rock I wanted to put it in my mouth so bad I felt filthy
He’s a pretty well built guy and has a huge boner so it’s easy to find him attractive but im not even into guys I don’t know what’s going on please give me answers lol