Painful Or Pleasurable

watched porn and tried to masturbate today with no success. no orgasm. probably because I been masturbating too much lately.

I watched some porn with girls hanging their bums out car windows for for boyfriends to fuck. I wondered if I would like that . I think if I was alone with 1 man I might but it looks a bit straining these days. Maybe if I was drunk but I don't really drink. Ass out of the glass is a bit shady in public with a group of pumping dudes wanking off and jerking for position to do by the dozen.

I seen a couple fucking wildly in the bush and bedroom and several car porno and glory hole, alley way fucking of couples on hidden security and at the movies blow job.

Look I have to admit the majority of it is not for me. I am a virgin and I have experienced attempt of r**e a few of times.

am I weird that it doesn't really turn me on right now. But I thought the girls in the porn flicks were very pretty.

please don't laugh at me when I say I am afraid of hurting and ripping the vagina hymen flower and the pain of it makes me fearful to have sex.