I Got Turned Into A Bottom At Summer Camp

The question that is left unanswered is why when we are at just the right age we get turned on by another guy's dick. For example, when I was 14 I went to a summer camp. We slept in these rooms which contained a bunkbed. One was on top and one was on the bottom. I got the bottom, of course I was on the bottom, I had to bottom for him, the kid that got the top bunk, he was on top. His dick in my mouth, his dick in my crack, his dick in my hand. He was on the top bunk so I was the bottom.

it's marked me all my life, no matter how it starts, sooner or later I'm the one with a dick in my hand, a dick in my mouth and I turn over to have a dick in my crack and up my ass. Always, every time, I can't help it, it isn't over until his dick goes in my ass. Worse than that, when I'm confronted with a top I go into cocksucker and pantywaist mode. I'm cleaning up after him, making him comfortable, all the damn sissy things happen to me.

One time at a club, I was there with several of my coworkers. This top shows up, and starts a conversation with me. My voice goes up an octave and my hands are tapping his chest and I'm waiting for a kiss. I don't even think about it, I just go into sissy mode, pick up mode and if I don't get picked up and taken away for a good fucking I go home and feel bad for myself all night long.

Before that camp I never felt that way or behaved that way, after camp I wore tight pants and my radar was on full time showing off to a top and waiting for him to take me and show me why I should bottom for him.