Dangerous Taboo

I have a kink for masochistic behavior eg. purposefully being late for work, not answering phone calls and making people worry, staying up all night before big plans. Even when I have an argument I get a wet pussy…it’s like I feel guilt and anxiety in my pussy so immediately want to masturbate. The taboo of being late or doing wrong gets me off so much. Surely I can’t be the only one?