Over It Or Getting Older

So I’m the guy who confesses getting fucked a lot by all sorts of hung men. I started seeing me at age 30 and before I knew it I was a master at getting a hookup. I’ve been a total whore, I’ld have sex then ask questions. I’d be super responsive to hung men. I love a big dick. As of the last two years I become a great bottom not by accident but by lots and lots of practice and skill learning. I make a cock feel amazing. I get complements from every single man I get fucked by, on how good it feels and how tight the whole is (no squeezing your ass if the wrong thing to do… I can teach on how to take a cock…). Have had probably in the hundreds of men with big dicks cum inside me. As of late though I’m losing interests in getting fucked. I been going through what seems like a brake up with a guy I love and cafe for a lot, the love is not reciprocated it seems but the sex was amazing he had a big fat beautiful cock he would bury balls deep in me. He does care and would get jealous if he found out I fucked someone else but I’m at a point where I want someone to be with so I have to move on from him even if it hurts. Thing is as I made the decision to move and still getting dixk from lots of men. I met a guy who I’ve been seeing for a month now. He is tall but doesn’t have a big cock, he’s average about 5 or 6 inches with decent girth. He’s not the best Fuck either bit I’m falling for the guy and I don’t want to have sex period with anyone other than him. I don’t know what’s happening to me, I’m a cock hungry whore who seeks out bog cocks for sex constantly! But now I don’t cate for sex and only want to intimate with this new guy I met. I want to be only his and that’s it. If it works out I’m not doing the open relationship thing I will keep it a closed relationship. I’ve been the whore a lot of these open relationship gay dudes like to fuck with and keep it from their partners… so I’m not about that. I deleted grinder and will do my best to abstain from sex unless it’s with this new guy. Maybe I care more about him that his dick size…