High School Experimenting

When I was in grade 10, I had my first sexual experience with a boy in my grade. His name was josh and we had become friends in grade 9 from having the same gym class together. Since then, josh and I found ourselves having the same schedule our first term which allowed us to become pretty good friends. Ever now and then Josh and I would hangout after school and he would come to my house to play video games and watch YouTube and things like that. One weekend day, josh and I decided to hangout. We bought a joint off one of our buddies, then rode our bikes to a secluded spot to smoke. During our sesh, josh and I planned to head back to my house to chill and play video games until the high wore off. When we got back to my house, we ended up putting a show on because we had the munchies and got snacks. Afterwards, as we were watching the show I started to get really hard for no reason and a sudden urge to release. I was on one couch and josh was on another, and through my pant I started to feel my dick while watching our show. I don’t know what came over me but i turned to josh and started talking about how I was horny and needed to cum. Josh laughed and said “why don’t you go into your room and jerk off.” I laughed and asked if he was serious in which he nodded and said yes. There in that moment, my heart was beating so fast as I got up and went into my room. I entered my bed, slid my pants down to my ankles, put the blanket over me and started to jerk off. After a few seconds of touching myself, josh entered the room. He said he felt weird about being out there alone (my living room) while I was doing my thing. So he sat down on a couch I have in my room and chilled on his phone while I’m playing with my hard cock. With him being there made me even more horny. I said “if you want to do it too, you can. It may make it less weird.” From there, josh laughed and hesitantly joined me. I moved over on my bed with my cock in my hand and watched josh undress. He was around 5’7, chubby but had a nice girthy 6”uncut cock. Josh laid next to me and we masturbated together. This got me so horny and josh was very curious to see my dick since I was still under the blanket. His curiosity excited me and I took me penis from under the cover. He was amazed by my 7.5” penis and compared it to his. From here we started touching each other and edging our cocks because we wanted to see who could cum the most. Josh ended up cumming first and his load wasn’t that big. After he came, it was my turn. Josh grabbed lotion and put it all over my cock then started to stroke me long and fast that within seconds I shot my load. I remember seeing the cum squirt from my dick onto Josh’s hand. After both cumming, we cleaned ourselves up and had a very shameful and awkward rest of our time hanging out and barely talked about it. Days later, I felt ashamed of what I did but found myself wanting to do it again. The following week after not talking to josh about what had happened, we decided ti hangout again. During our hangout we ended up masturbating again which ended in shameful regret. We kept doing this throughout my grade 10 year and sometimes fooled around while at school. We had a moment where things were close to escalating past handjobs into nearly blowing eachother but that didn’t happen. To this day I think of my gay experience with josh and it turns me on.