Bi-Sexual Female / 22
Race Fetish
I have a fetish for Asian men. I've tried denying it for so long, but it's only getting worse. Part of me feels bad for it because I know it can be weird or harmful to have a fetish for a certain race, but the other part of me enjoys it. I'm not a predator...I don't tell random Asian guys I want to fuck them because they're Asian. I try my best to keep it to myself unless they're into it as well. I feel guilty just typing this out but I need to get it off my chest.
For anyone curious, I don't degrade Asian men. I praise them. Maybe it's because I grew up in the south and was around r*********s the majority of my childhood and teen years? My parents weren't blatantly racist, but they didn't necessarily like the idea of their kid getting with someone who wasn't white. I've been attracted to Asian men for as long as I can remember and my attraction has only gotten stronger as I got older. I prefer them to be older than me, 25 at the youngest and 50-60 at the oldest. Although, 30-45 is my ideal age range.
I struggle with this a lot because I do carry a lot of guilt. I tell people Asian guys are "just my type" but it goes beyond that (obviously). It's gotten to the point where I hardly find any other race attractive and I can't see myself having sex with another white person. Not that there's anything wrong with the way white people look, it just doesn't do it for me anymore.
It sometimes effects my everyday life. Anytime I see an attractive Asian man in public, I get extremely nervous and try to avoid them so they can't see me...I try not to stare but sometimes I can't help myself. I feel bad because I don't want to make them uncomfortable with my staring... It's just hard. As much as I sometimes enjoy it, I hope it does down a bit as I get older. It can be fun but it is a little bit of a burden.
For anyone curious, I don't degrade Asian men. I praise them. Maybe it's because I grew up in the south and was around r*********s the majority of my childhood and teen years? My parents weren't blatantly racist, but they didn't necessarily like the idea of their kid getting with someone who wasn't white. I've been attracted to Asian men for as long as I can remember and my attraction has only gotten stronger as I got older. I prefer them to be older than me, 25 at the youngest and 50-60 at the oldest. Although, 30-45 is my ideal age range.
I struggle with this a lot because I do carry a lot of guilt. I tell people Asian guys are "just my type" but it goes beyond that (obviously). It's gotten to the point where I hardly find any other race attractive and I can't see myself having sex with another white person. Not that there's anything wrong with the way white people look, it just doesn't do it for me anymore.
It sometimes effects my everyday life. Anytime I see an attractive Asian man in public, I get extremely nervous and try to avoid them so they can't see me...I try not to stare but sometimes I can't help myself. I feel bad because I don't want to make them uncomfortable with my staring... It's just hard. As much as I sometimes enjoy it, I hope it does down a bit as I get older. It can be fun but it is a little bit of a burden.
