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Anything Goes
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Straight Female / 27
They Either Have Sympathy Or Laugh At Me
People seem to either sympathizes me thinking i'm vulnerable and dependent (which is true) or they think i am dumb.
Those who sympathizes me acting like i'm a child.
They speaking gently to me and i think they might think i am younger than i am.
This summer a mother of a girl's house i was she thought i was 18 and i really really liked it.΄ This is because of my face i guess. It's a baby face and i don't have wrinkles, and i afraid the day that i unfortunately would develop wrinkles.
The most things i've done it was because my friends told me to do for my own good. I trust them, i know they have good intentions with me.
I don't know why but i am dependent person and i need others to tell me what to do because i don't know and i'm afraid to be an adult.
In fact i feel like child-teenager inside. Recently my mother told me she would liked it if i had a relationship with a 35 year old guy and seems weird to me. If i had a relationship with a teenager i could go to jail and this seems weird to me too.
My parents especially my mother also treat me like more vulnerable compared my sister.
This behavior towards me i can't lie but i actually like it because i never have responsibilities neither to my parents or friends.
But at the same time i don't like it because i don't have a strong personality. I have a weak personality.
If i had a job and my boss or employees yelled at me or made fun of me i could cry.
And there's people who make fun of me. I try to stay away from them and be with my friends only. When i am with my friends and be myself, i'm childish, i do childish voice too sometimes, and sometimes this is annoying.
Also i think it's not helpful if i want new people to like me. Maybe my behavior it's childish and immature for them, i believe that'sthe reason nobody came close to me for a relationship or company. And if someone really comes close to me and talk to me automatically i act unconsciously like i want him to take care of me and be like a parent.
If i had too act like an adult i just sit quietly, neutral and bored.
The only positive is i feel like a child-teenager inside and i have the freedom an adult have, for instance i can drink alcohol and stay up all night or go out all night.
But unfortunately some places i like for instance indoor playground adults aren't allowed.
Those who sympathizes me acting like i'm a child.
They speaking gently to me and i think they might think i am younger than i am.
This summer a mother of a girl's house i was she thought i was 18 and i really really liked it.΄ This is because of my face i guess. It's a baby face and i don't have wrinkles, and i afraid the day that i unfortunately would develop wrinkles.
The most things i've done it was because my friends told me to do for my own good. I trust them, i know they have good intentions with me.
I don't know why but i am dependent person and i need others to tell me what to do because i don't know and i'm afraid to be an adult.
In fact i feel like child-teenager inside. Recently my mother told me she would liked it if i had a relationship with a 35 year old guy and seems weird to me. If i had a relationship with a teenager i could go to jail and this seems weird to me too.
My parents especially my mother also treat me like more vulnerable compared my sister.
This behavior towards me i can't lie but i actually like it because i never have responsibilities neither to my parents or friends.
But at the same time i don't like it because i don't have a strong personality. I have a weak personality.
If i had a job and my boss or employees yelled at me or made fun of me i could cry.
And there's people who make fun of me. I try to stay away from them and be with my friends only. When i am with my friends and be myself, i'm childish, i do childish voice too sometimes, and sometimes this is annoying.
Also i think it's not helpful if i want new people to like me. Maybe my behavior it's childish and immature for them, i believe that'sthe reason nobody came close to me for a relationship or company. And if someone really comes close to me and talk to me automatically i act unconsciously like i want him to take care of me and be like a parent.
If i had too act like an adult i just sit quietly, neutral and bored.
The only positive is i feel like a child-teenager inside and i have the freedom an adult have, for instance i can drink alcohol and stay up all night or go out all night.
But unfortunately some places i like for instance indoor playground adults aren't allowed.
