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Straight Male / 38
I'm Still Here
At 36, we discovered I had a heart condition and would need surgery, which took place at 37 (last June). I died twice on the operating table, and my wife was told to get my affairs in order. I didn't die, I survived. I have a mechanical heart valve as a result and will be sidelined until June of this year. I'll take meds the rest of my life and can't lift more than 30 lbs.
Now that I'm slowly starting to go back to work and need less constant care, my wife has decided she can't live like this - she's too young to be a caretaker she says. So she left January 1, and I've been on my own for a month now.
All I want is to be loved, cared for, and lusted after as a man. That's my confession, I just want a very special woman in my life and it seems impossible with this kind of condition. It's isolating living like this and especially so when the one person you thought was by your side walks put on you.
Now that I'm slowly starting to go back to work and need less constant care, my wife has decided she can't live like this - she's too young to be a caretaker she says. So she left January 1, and I've been on my own for a month now.
All I want is to be loved, cared for, and lusted after as a man. That's my confession, I just want a very special woman in my life and it seems impossible with this kind of condition. It's isolating living like this and especially so when the one person you thought was by your side walks put on you.
