My Crossdresser Side...

I told ya'll before, I have interest in crossdressing. Not, like, dress myself as a girl and go out like that, but I secretly do it. Sometimes, I get my sister's lingerie, her dress or skirt, lipstick, earrings, and make myself up. Because of my body, I don't look like a girl, and to be honest, I don't want to be one. But just the feeling of doing something that wrong, like dress myself up as a girl and walk around my house like that is so exciting. My family doesn't know about that side of me.
I don't know what happens, I just like the feeling of using panties. Sometimes, when I'm all alone, I go to my sister's room and get lingerie, put panties, bra, and look myself at the mirror. If I were skinny, I would probably look beautiful, but it is still amazing. after that, I masturbate with her panties, but not like that, I don't get her panties, jack off and cum into them, I use them put them to the side and start rubbing my dick. Last year, I couldn't even bare two minutes using her lingerie and jacking off while fondling my nipples, it was just delicious. Things like that make me even confused, because the thinking of skinny mans crossdressing kinda turns me on.

I still want to crossdress, but I'm thinking about living alone to do it. I'll make a confession about it later.