Cock Shrinking Fetish

I’ve never had a big cock, but it was about average size. Recently, I’ve discovered I have a fetish for getting it to shrink. I wish for it to be as small as it possibly can be. I’ve even started rubbing Preparation H into it, which has made it smaller temporarily. But I wish for so much more. I wish for a spell, or a pill, or something that would quickly make it exceptionally small. Then I’d want to be humiliated by being forced to show my micro penis. I’m regularly looking for hypnosis, creams, or anything else that could fulfill this wish. It has gone beyond mere fantasy to a remarkably strong desire and wish. I really want this to happen, and would gladly accept help to make it happen.