My Hot Best Friends

I´m a 5´4,out of shape brown virgin dude with artistic and scientific qualities and this is my story.I have some wonderful hot ladies as my friends,obviosuky all of them are not the same but I should clarify that most of them have at least two attributes that made them very attractive,big boobs,awesome thigs,small pink nipples,wide eyes,a big ass,blond hair ,being at least one head taller than me, and of course I jerk off to them in a daily basis,Some of them know it because our friendship is that deep and allow me to talk freely about how much I want to fuck them,sometimes I even get nudes but thats all,all of them im to unattractive to actually slep with me,all of them think my dick is a baby dick ,none of them wants to fuck a guy clearly smaller than them.and about my physical appareance, Ive been trying to gain muscle for years but i dont know know whichever condition i have that enables me to get fit.
I am very ambitious and I should be grateful?
I feel like yes ,but i cant help but feel gutted whenever the girl I consoled the night after her mother died tells me she cant go out with me that night because she prefers to spend the night with her 6'2 gym teacher
or when my best friend describes with delight in her eyes how good her boyfriens dick felt inside her
I mean ,surely all of them keep telling me all about their sexual lifes and I masturbate furiously each time they do it,but sometimes I wish I could be good enough