Help Me Choose

Well there is this boy, who was actually my first fuck that I dated for nearly three years starting when I was 16. It was great and kind of special, at least I thought it was but at the end it just had nowhere to go. We weren't ready to move in together but had kind of exhausted our sense of adventure and just got bored so we broke up. We didn't fall out and stayed friends but moved on.

Occasionally I would get a message from him saying he had just masterbated looking at a picture of me - he had some undies, bikini and topless pictures of me he took. Mostly I laughed, but sometimes I was cross and told him not to. It only happened sometimes, it wasn't really a biggie.

Recently I have been seeing a guy and we are pretty serious and talking about maybe renting a flat (aaprtment) together in a few months time. I got several messages over a couple of weeks from my ex with his usual message and asking me if I remembered when we took this or that photo.

This had to stop so I arranged to visit him to tell him to stop doing that and to delete all those pictures he had of me because it was a bit disturbing and a bit odd to be doing it.

When we met up he agreed to delete all the naughty pics and we went to his place to do it and he would show me. At his place he said it would be fair if he was going to give this up I should maybe just do it with him one more time. I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE SAID NO. but I didn;t and I agreed, I'd got excited thinking of him and my naughty pics.

We both got naked and he laid on his bed and I got on top of him and his bare cock slipped straight inside of me. It felt perfect and took me right back to the old times. He was great he always fucked me quite rough and talked dirty to me. Which my latest guy doesn't.

We were at it for nearly an hour and we both came, me several times. He told me he knew I wanted it but I denied it but now I can't get it out of my head. I just love his cock.

I want both guys but can't do that.
I have chosen what to do, I think, but I need folks to confirm for me. I know what my friends would say if I confessed to them, but I cant. So should I go with the lovely sensible guy who loves me or with the cock of my dreams and fantasies who wants me back.

Gawd what shall I do
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