Bi-Sexual Male / 63
Bi Curious
I'm a 63 year old man . For the past 2 years I've been having a desire to have an experience with a guy . Holding his cock in my hand , jacking him off rubb our cock together and working up the nerve to take his cock into my mouth .
I'm both desire for this to happen and at the same time repulsed by my feelings to commit this act . The thought of a man's cum on my face or in my mouth is probably what stops me .
I'm also only attracted to certain cock so I'm not like a rooster and any cock ll do . He would have to be circumcised smooth ect .
I'm an Army veteran I have ptsd ,bipolar and I don't know what all . I'm no longer able to work haven't been in about 10 years . I haven't been laid in going on 20 years due to anxiety and avoiding going out in public . I also don't have any income . I'm housed except for about 3 months last year when my landlord no longer wished to be in a month to month lease . I live in a rural state and I guess largely due to covid we have had many people move into our state our landlords get greedy our rents almost triple in costs in much of the state .
I was going to use my stimulus checks to travel somewhere in the state and get a call girl for a few hours and maybe again the next day. However because I because homeless again I was unable to do this . It costs me nearly everything I had to be homeless ,pursuing a tent traveling to an area where I'd be safe from forest fires and where I'd be left alone . I found a place to live on the other side of the state after about 3 months .
I'm looking into getting my social security next year .
So I don't know some of this is just back ground . I'm still not sure how I became bi curious probably from watching too much porn . I really get turned on by mfm porn I've checked out doublelist ect but no one in my area or anyone wanting an older man .
I've also tried to get some women's panties i would like to smell them when I masturbate .
Well I don't know what to do i haven't found a guy either but I'm sure interested in anal not fucking a guy or a guy fucking me I just don't want that .
I'm both desire for this to happen and at the same time repulsed by my feelings to commit this act . The thought of a man's cum on my face or in my mouth is probably what stops me .
I'm also only attracted to certain cock so I'm not like a rooster and any cock ll do . He would have to be circumcised smooth ect .
I'm an Army veteran I have ptsd ,bipolar and I don't know what all . I'm no longer able to work haven't been in about 10 years . I haven't been laid in going on 20 years due to anxiety and avoiding going out in public . I also don't have any income . I'm housed except for about 3 months last year when my landlord no longer wished to be in a month to month lease . I live in a rural state and I guess largely due to covid we have had many people move into our state our landlords get greedy our rents almost triple in costs in much of the state .
I was going to use my stimulus checks to travel somewhere in the state and get a call girl for a few hours and maybe again the next day. However because I because homeless again I was unable to do this . It costs me nearly everything I had to be homeless ,pursuing a tent traveling to an area where I'd be safe from forest fires and where I'd be left alone . I found a place to live on the other side of the state after about 3 months .
I'm looking into getting my social security next year .
So I don't know some of this is just back ground . I'm still not sure how I became bi curious probably from watching too much porn . I really get turned on by mfm porn I've checked out doublelist ect but no one in my area or anyone wanting an older man .
I've also tried to get some women's panties i would like to smell them when I masturbate .
Well I don't know what to do i haven't found a guy either but I'm sure interested in anal not fucking a guy or a guy fucking me I just don't want that .
