Want To Do It

When I was in my teens I was a real ladies man. I had up to 10 girlfriends at a time. Having sex as much as I could. My family and the people around me don’t believe in eating pussy or anal sex... these things are taboo to them. But I’ve always been curious. I had received head from females a lot but never returned the favor.
When I was about 17 I met a girl who was my childhood girlfriend who I hadn’t seen for years. We got together and I had sex. I took her virginity and taught her about sex. One day while having sex I asked her if she’d suck my cock and she said yes and want down on me...
I felt guilty so I asked her if she wanted me to return the favor and she said if I wanted to so I did and it wasn’t so bad... I didn’t do it again just that once... About 2 years after we had broken up n I was with another girl... she was a real freak.. she’d have sex almost anywhere I wanted to. Sick my dick anywhere... after being with her for a few months I found out that she had done anal before... I was so curious... so one day she came over and we were having sex and I asked her if I could put it in her ass... she agreed I was nervous n I tried putting it in her ass but it couldn’t go in so I used some spit to lubricate it n it went in n it was amazing... it was so tight... but I didn’t dare letting anyone know about it... we had sex many times after but only did anal only one Other time before we broke up...
It’s been years later and I live with my new girlfriend and our son, I eat her pussy when we feel like it so am used to it... but sometimes I have this urge to fuck her in her ass or to just fuck some girl in her ass but there’s no one around me or in my circle that I can ask so I just have to keep it to my self I not show this urge to anyone .