A Strange Mind

I am here to confess a few things. In high school years ago I made two boys ejaculate by sucking them and another different year had a guy fucking my thighs till he came. This went on for a long while then I’d be left to jack off. Raw deal. When young maybe around 15 or 16 my cousin tried to do my ass but couldn’t, maybe this is what made me bi-curious. In the armed forces years later a colleague fucked my ass and I did his after being both intoxicated. Nothing spectacular at all but with time it made me start watching all kinds of porn incl gay porn. I at times wish to play with a dick n other times find myself playing my arsehole with my finger as I jack off. Now am happily married and feel odd with all this. There are times I wish to have some one suck my wife’s boobs as I suck the other one and fuck her. Other times am wishing to fuck an innocent nun. Even other times wish I could have an ffm. I really don’t know what happens to my mind and wish these thoughts could all go away and my that kind of past never to have been.