Can't Get A Boyfriend

My real dad hasn't been around since I was 5 so I don't know much about him. My mum started dating about a year ago with my current step dad.
Mum often goes away for days at a time due to her work.
I can't get a boyfriend because my step dad keeps fucking me when mum is away or asleep.
My step dad is younger than my mum and is kinda hot. He treats me nicely, buys lots of stuff for me and tells me what I should wear and ddo. I like listening and doing what he tells me to. He doesn't like me being a slut and tells me I'm a good girl for spreading my legs for him only. I think I'm in love with my step father.