A LIfetime Of Worship

I have suffered for a very long time. I am sure their is a root cause of my deviant behavior, I cannot control my need to suck and grovel at another man's penis. It comes over me, no pattern as to who, it can be on a train, or in a restaurant, or the man working behind the counter at a diner. When the urge overcomes me nothing will satisfy me until I grovel at a man's penis and suck him, which means handling his penis, and working him until he cums. I have been caught performing fellatio in a car, at a park, in a men's restroom. I have a record and have served time in county jail for it. The last time I got caught was performing fellatio in a county park on a homeless man. I have been forced to take counseling which has proven to be a complete waste of time. I have contemplated chemical castration.

My deviance started a very long time ago, it is not a recent thing. And yes I have sucked a Priest's penis and submitted to anal intercourse with him. But he was the object of my desire, not the cause of it. There is always the first time, and my first time was with a neighbor who worked nights. He was a very large man, probably in his early sixties, with a very large penis. His penis was hard and he had lowered his pants. I took his penis in both hands and he helped me get him to cum. I licked all the cum off his penis, his legs and on me. I worshipped his penis and went over to his apartment where he let me play with his penis and suck and kiss and hold his penis. Sometimes he had me kneel and beg, I am guessing that is when I started to worship a man's penis and I continue to worship a penis today.