Being At Ease With The Man I See In The Mirror

I've always been heavy, fat. As a kid I was ok but as a teen I had a lot of social issues. To put it this way, I have never been able to see my dick without a mirror. I masturbated a lot as a teen, one of my favorite ways was rubbing myself against the carpet while watching tv in the den. My parents both worked and I was one of many when it came to being home alone after school.

I was on the carpet in front of the tv naked rubbing myself when the serviceman for the tower we lived in walked in. They had keys, but were supposed to knock. If he did I didn't hear, I just felt this man over me as he kneeled down and put his cock between my cheeks and started to rub himself holding me down. He used his hand under him to find my pucker hole and he started to get it in.

There was no pain, not really, just this pleasure sensation, this pressure and all you want right then is for it not go away. He worked his cock in, and started to fuck and I was rubbing my cock against the carpet and I felt myself cum and lay there with my arms out in front of me until he came too. He had me go to his unit in the basement and over the next months I learned of all the things you can do. He liked chubby and I liked that he was a big heavy man. I learned that my cock wasn't small and that his wasn't either and that cock sucking and mutual masturbation was a lot of fun too,

All these many years later, decades have passed, I never had a problem with my weight or my self esteem. I find other heavy men attractive, men who are strong and work in the trades. I went to teachers college and became an Upper School History teacher. I always pay extra attention to the fat boys and help them develop an appreciation for themselves, of course never crossing the line. My attractions when it comes to men is always for older dark men, I have never been attracted younger men. My current lover is M, a Pakistani with a moving company, who likes rosy chubby men.