Wish I Wouldn’t Have Looked

I’m going to be married soon to a beautiful woman that I love very much. She is sexy, loyal, how is that exotic Latina Grace and beauty about her that is perfect. We got engaged about two months ago after we had been broken up for about three months after dating previously for three or four years. We actually had broken up because she was in a bigger hurry to get married and move forward with our lives that I was at that Time. I know during the couple of months that we were broken up she dated some, as did I, but I really didn’t know she was involved with anyone. The breaker didn’t last that long and when we started speaking again it was clear we both wanted to be together and it has been a great sense. So I have been kind of silly in thought and deed lately. It is embarrassing to say II’m going to be married soon to a beautiful woman that I love very much. She is sexy, loyal, how is that exotic Latina Grace and beauty about her that is perfect. We got engaged about two months ago after we had been broken up for about three months after dating previously for three or four years. We actually had broken up because she was in a bigger hurry to get married and move forward with our lives that I was at that Time. I know during the couple of months that we were broken up she dated some, as did I, but I really didn’t know she was involved with anyone. The breaker didn’t last that long. About a week and a half ago we came in from the gym and grocery and she said she wanted to jump in the shower and I told her I would put the groceries away, start dinner and then shower after her. She rarely does it take her phone with her everywhere and on this day she left it on the kitchen counter and I realized it was unlocked. I hate that I did it now but I sat down and started walking through it. First I look through the pictures which made me feel great because there was many many pictures of me and me and her. Clearly they meant a lot to her. As I was flipping through I noticed there was a picture during the truth that we were broke up of her hugging and smiling with a good looking look Latino guy. It made me a little jealous but I just figured who knows if it was just a friend or anything else I shouldn’t extrapolates anymore out of it. Instead of letting it go like I should have I started flipping through text messages and once again during the period that we were broke up I saw several from a person named Marco and even notice that there were several messages from him and one back within the first couple weeks of us getting back together. I opened the last one from her back to him and basically told she was telling him not to Contact her anymore and that she was back with me and Happy. That was sweet I thought but then when I opened several from him I saw there were attachments and tomorrow horror they were very graphic videos of the two of them having sex. I felt sick to my stomach but I could not look away. They were just very intimate and I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. . First of all, he had an enormous penis Which was painful enough to think about videos that he was clearly filming of him fucking her doggy style and her moaning and screaming like I have never heard. Another I opened and felt lightheaded and sick as he was clearly filming lying on his back and she had his large dick deep in her mouth blowing him. He was holding her head and talking dirty to her while she walked up and down his shaft. The next attachment was a still photo of her laughing with cum covering her face. I heard the shower turn off so quickly closed out Everything and set her phone back. I was sick and angry and hurt and not even sure why because I really had no right. Just a thought of some big dick dude using her and her seeming to enjoy it so much Really dug. get me. For some reason the way I was hurt really badly I felt the need to have sex with her right away so I went in and she got out of the shower and pulled her onto the bed even though I had not showered me and kissing her and licking her vagina the whole time thinking about His big dick stretching it out. I fucked her hard and she came hard just like in the video I just watched. Afterwards I got up even though she asked me to lay with her and was telling me how much she loved me I got up And got dressed and went for a drive. I was haunted by the images I saw in my ego was overwhelming me. She texted me and tried to call several times while I was out driving finally and one of them she said she was very worried. So I told her I had some thinking to do but I would be home soon. When I got home she was sitting on the kitchen counter with her phone in her hand and it was clear she had been crying. I was still shaking and not a great mood so I kind of coldly ask her what was the matter. she asked me if I had looked at her phone while she was in the shower. I asked her why she asked and she said that when she came out after our lovemaking and my leaving she opened her phone and saw that some images she wishes were not still on her phone were open. Clearly I had not closed it out properly when I said nothing. She said please answer me, I do not think it’s right that you were sleeping through my phone but if you were I want to talk to you about what was there I don’t want it to be between us. So I said yes, I feel bad and I am sorry that I was snooping, but yes I had seen some very graphic images of for fucking and I was really struggling with it. She started sobbing. She said she hated herself for not deleting the messages when he had sent them as she did not know he had filmed them and she felt sick that I had seen them I was afraid she was going to lose me. I was still a bit her so I said I just had no idea that in that short time we were broke up you were involved in a relationship with a parent porn star. I’m kind of surprised that you wanna be back with me after being fucked that well. It was a cruel thing to say and I instantly regretted it but let it hang in the air. She said look, we were broke up I was upset with you because I did not feel like you’re fought for the relationship. I have known Marco for several years through friends but we have never been intimate until that time. I knew I was not in love with him I knew I wanted to be back with you but I did not know that’s what you wanted. I said well it certainly looks like you had a lot of fun and I am a little shocked That you have a picture out there with our guy Marcos cum covering your face. She for head down and sobbed Quietly and finally said you will never forgive me or at least you will never get that image out of your head. I love you and I am sorry that those images exist and I told him to destroy them but just so we have a clear understanding I had sex with him on about three different occasions. The sex was good I won’t lie I did enjoy it but I also thought guilty because I missed you I had not wanted to be with someone else But chose to and I accept that. It’s also important for me to tell you that however they look it was not better sex than what you and I have. I love you and every time that we make love I am More in love with you. I do not know if you had sex with other women when we were broken up and I do not want to know and I would also be very hurt probably crushed if I found a video of you with another woman so I understand. But I mean for you to make a decision rather quickly as to whether your love for me is strong enough to let it go. If it haunts you and makes you unhappy and comes between us then we need to know now and go our own ways. She didn’t put her head on the counter and started crying again. I walked away. We did not talk at all that night and I slept on the couch although late into the morning she came in and laid on top of me. The next morning I got up and made us tea. We didn’t see much and we both had to go to work. We were both exhausted and she looked to Defeated and sad. I dropped her off at her job and then I actually called in and took the day off and just drove around. Finally after a lot of introspection I realized I didn’t wanna lose her And while it was extremely painful she had not been dishonest or disloyal. And while it was extremely painful she had not been dishonest or disloyal. I got home later and she was sitting at the kitchen counter just staring down. I took a deep breath and told her that I loved you and I wanted to be with her and though it hurt looking at it. I told her she was worth putting it out of my head forever and I still wanted to marry her if that’s what she wanted. She got up walked over and hugged me tightly she said she was so sorry what she wanted to be my wife and always be by my side. So we have been doing great and it only came up one more time as we were in bed naked making very heavy passion Love and I asked her if I could be honest about something. She said of course. I said I’m kind of embarrassed I have to tell you the thanking of those videos and hearing her moans and screams really turned me on and I had masturbated thinking about them several times. She kissed me deeply and we fucked hard into a deep sweaty lather well we both came several times over the next couple of hours. I have never heard her have the kind of orgasms that she had even in the video. Afterwards as we lay in each other’s arms she said that it really turned her on to to hear me admit that I masturbated thinking about her even after we had made love so many times but if it was OK with me she wished to never think about being with another man again. I told her that was fine I just needed to get it out of my system. I won’t lie that there are times I still think about the images and get a bit jealous but I know how Lucky I am and although Marco was lucky for a short time he lost out on the big prize.