Sometimes A Feeling Is So Good You Can't Ever Feel It Again

I had an uncle growing up who was very affectionate. I loved sitting on his lap or beside him. He had a way of hugging me, and his hands were very strong. We went to the lake one weekend and he came in to put me to bed. I was too big to carry by then, and getting hugs required me to stand and hug his neck. I was already in bed and he sat beside me, I put my arms around his neck, he hugged me very tight. He put me back down with my head on my pillow and he leaned down to kiss me, his hand fell on my lap, my legs opened and he grabbed me with his hand. A kiss, he told me he loved me, and a full handful grab and he let me go.

He has been a part of my life, very affectionate, but he never held his hand between my legs again. No one else has either and I'm not sure I will ever let another man. I don't want to be disappointed.