I love you. I love you and yet you piss me off so much. Things about you makes me so angry... your attitude, the way you tell my you love me too (I don't know if you just said it because I did, or if you really meant it), the way you never answer your phone. I've loved you for 4 1/2 years and you say you love me too, but you never want to tell me things, never want to confide anything in me.
Do you still love AS? Do you want to be with her? What do you even want from me? Do you want sex? Or love? Or a friend?
I'll give you almost anything... almost... just ASK. Don't be afaid to ask. What will it hurt if I say no? I would never judge you, be angry with you for trying. Ever. I promise.
I may even tell you how to find this confession. I wish I could just confess it all to your face.
I love you. I really hope you sincerely love me too.

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by Anonymous on Dec 17, 2008 at 6:24 PM

Seriously what stops me is AS. I know.. KNOW we will never have a single chance in hell, but if she asked.. i would take her in a heart beat! i cry everytime i see her.. literally everytime!:( at the same time. dont get me wrong. when im with you all i think about is YOU. and think about what could be and is. and i love that. but the problem is that once we part i ask myself why... i feel like i could be with you bc your amazing and love me and would do anything for/with you, but then feel opposite..
And the even weirder part is i talk to one other younger girl, who i like, havnt talked about anything other than flirting, BUT still see something with in due time as weird as everyone may judge me i could care less.

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by Anonymous on Dec 18, 2008 at 9:45 AM

Why do people say I could care less when it is supposed to be I couldn't care less.

What the fuck are you talking about?

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by Anonymous on Dec 18, 2008 at 5:05 PM

Now my only question is why would you do what you just did 2 hours ago when you aren't sure that I am what you want? I am alright with you not knowing yet... I guess I have to be alright with it, don't I? I understand about AS. I really get that... but that was what I was okay with. I told you before that I wanted to know if there was anyone else... and I'm glad you told me. But now I'm not as comfortable.
I really want to figure this out. I want to be with you. But I want you to be happy and decide on something that you think will work.
I'm still here. I'm still waiting. Do you still want me to call?
I'm sorry I said I love you... I could tell that it made you uncomfortable. But I don't take it back.

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by Anonymous on Dec 19, 2008 at 10:37 PM

Then we cant be anything more. I can't. i still cry over her everyday and thats not changing. we are way to close as friends and this whole thingbetween us came so fucking fast.. look at the hottub. the exact same day as we started talking again.. And yeah, as sorry as i am, I am talking to someone else. theres nothing going on and we dont hangout or anything so dont think its like that, its strictly talking. but it will be a looong time before ppl here about anything IF anything happens.
and the reason i did what i did is because i told you: when we are together i dont see anything wrong, and think about us being together in the future, then you leave and i ask why i just did that, why am i prolonging this talk that we are having right now. you wanted it, and i wanted you to be happy. im sorry. i shouldnt have then. And i dont feel uncomfortable with you saying you love me. but AS comes back all the time. i try to push her away and tell her to leave me alone. and then she talks to me like nothings wrong for hours on end on a rondom night and i ball my eyes out thinking about what was. idfk. i hate myself.

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by Anonymous on Dec 23, 2008 at 2:07 PM

okay. we are nothing then. i told you i'd give you what you want. i'm sorry it didn't work... again. maybe this is telling us something. we've tried and tried and it never works. 7th grade... 9th grade... 11th grade... what is to say it would work now? maybe i was just fooling myself. i'm sorry i wasted your time. i should have known that you aren't over her. i understand... dont get me wrong. how long did it take me to get over you? a long time.

actually, i dont want to be nothing. i need to be friends with you. i can't have nothing at all. i promise i wont push you... i wont try to get more than friends. can i have that?

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by Anonymous on Dec 23, 2008 at 6:42 PM

Sweetie, your still not over him. Let him go, friends won't work, your to emotionally involved. You'll only end up going against your word and pushing or continually hurting yourself, or humiliating yourself. No partner is worth that

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by Anonymous on Dec 24, 2008 at 12:34 PM

he's worth anything i have to do. we stayed "just friends" for years. I can do it again.

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by Anonymous on Dec 24, 2008 at 2:11 PM

Will you go away. Who gives a fuck?

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by Anonymous on Dec 25, 2008 at 6:39 AM

seriously... fuck you. if you dont care, dont fucking read it. obviously somebody gives a fuck.

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by Anonymous on Dec 25, 2008 at 9:06 AM

I don't give a fuck because I don't even know what you are talking about.

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by Anonymous on Mar 29, 2009 at 12:20 PM

I do not know what the hell your going on about jesus go have a fewbeers or find a different person stop being obsessive.

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