I am 22 years old and I've never had a girlfriend. I hear most people say this having not even tried but believe me I tried. I've been looking for a relationship since I was 15. I've been trying everything, nothing can stop me from talking to any woman, I want, my motivation being that I want a girlfriend. But....no matter what I do I always fail in the worst ways possible. For the first few years I thought nothing of it but now I feel that the best time to experience love is over, I'm an adult now and it seems there is so much pressure to do this and do that, it fills me with sadness and anger. I have never had sex, meanwhile everyone around me is having it. I get frustrated when I see girls talking about how much they love their boyfriends and when I see my friends with their girls. I don't know what its like to be loved by someone, I'm always rejected or no one shows interest in me or the the girl I end up talking to always already has a girlfriend. I know I'm a nice guy, I don't behave like a guy that no girl would want to date. My first experience with love was when I had a crush on a girl who tricked me into thinking she liked me only to have her boyfriend and his friends jump me and beat me into the ground. That was the closest thing I've ever had to recriprocation of feelings. I keep thinking that things will look up but always end up having my hopes crushed every single time. I feel like everyone who sits and tells me that I'm 21 and I have my whole life to find someone is bullshitting me because everyone who tells me this has had someone at some point. I have had no one. Every girl I've ever loved has never loved me back. I am so lonely and I can't take it anymore. These feelings of anger, jealousy, inadequecy, and sadness make me want to die but I don't want to kill myself and burden my family. At my lowest point now, I recently found out that my 14 year old sister ran away with her boyfriend and had sex with him, she says that he is everything to her and they've been going out for a while and all that. I know I should not feel this way but it angers me...why can't I find someone who loves me? It seems everyone around can find someone and I can't. I don't want to have sex with some random person I just want someone to love me and care about me. The older I get, the more inadequate I feel, the women I meet who are close to my age can will be expecting so much from me and maybe I'm getting rejected because I don't have the experience with relationships a normal person my age is supposed to have. I also recently lost my job, who's gonna want to date a pennyless loser? I don't want to walk around, day in, day out feeling this way. It feels as if I can't find anyone. I'm so lonely. Why do I have to feel this way? What did I do to deserve this? As I type this I feel nothing but despair, all I want to do is die because it seems as if nothing will ever get better.