Discovering My Other Side, With Out Hang Ups Of Any Kind

As with most men I hit the wall when I just could not get and hold an erection. My sex life was over, not that my wife was too upset about it. We continued on, more like brother and sister than man and wife. I dreamt, but that was all.

Then I found myself alone for several days at at time while my wife took care of her mother. I started getting up with a desire for sex, and I turned to porn. The more I went to porn the more interested I became in gay porn. I think it is a natural rabbit hole. I just wanted to see what an erection looked like. Men with erections. And men who were older like me with erections. I could see myself sucking on that erection, making love to that erection and laying under that erection. I ordered a couple of butt plugs and used them while I was home alone. I ordered a large male member that I used while I was home. I liked seeing myself in the mirror with this large male member in my ass. If only the male member was real.

I joined a chat and as it turned out the man I was chatting with was from around where I lived. Within striking distance. I asked him point blank if he still got erections and he confirmed he did, although sometimes he needed help with medications. We chatted off and on for a couple of weeks and he suggested we meet halfway and see where it went. We met a chain restaurant by the highway and after lunch we went out to his truck and he showed me his erection. He let me lean over and take his erection in my hand and swallow it, make love to it. But only for a minute. I was hungry and he suggested we find a motel and check in, he wanted a complete blowjob and I wanted to give it to him.

In the room he told me he liked naked and we both got naked and he wanted lots of body contact and he told me wanted to suck me too and with his sucking and poking my ass with his finger he got a semblance of an erection, enough to make him suck me. He let me suck and make love to his erection, to hold it, massage it, kiss it, suck it, try to take it all into my mouth. He had me finger his sphincter, to kiss him between his sphincter and his balls. The smell drove me crazy and licked his hole and he told me to do it some more. It wasn't enough, I had a relatively hard erection by then he had it in his hand I was past caring anymore of what I was doing I turned on my stomach and he asked if I was sure and the next thing I know he is licking my ass and then his erection strikes, with a one two punch.

This was the most amazing feeling, I lay there while he stroked his erection in and out, he got harder and harder and he stroked so hard it felt like I was being impaled. When he came it was series of body slams, and he lay flat on my back, his wet dick between my legs. I didn't want him to move, to stay on my back. The ghost feeling of his dick in my ass, the weight of his naked body on me, the memory of what I had just experienced.

We agreed to see each other again but it never happened. I was embarrassed of what I had done and didn't go on the chat site again for several weeks. When I went again his profile was gone. I meet men, on the chat site, and some I've met by chance. I meet men and what I want is to be naked with a man, to make love to his dick, to get him erect, to feel his erection hard in my mouth. I want him to finger my ass, I want to lick his. I want him to get on my back, I want to feel his erect dick in my ass. I want him to fuck me. Fuck me not just stick his dick in my ass. And when my wife comes back from her two or three week stays with her mother she asks me what I've been up to.

Golf.