Should I Let A Man Fuck Me

I’m a man who has wore panties for a long time. I wear bras as well. I like to ride around wearing bras and panties while looking for bras and panties that people throw away. If I ever find red panties I always eat my cum. I’ve given blow jobs wearing just bra and panties. I’ve tried but plugs and small dildos. Just trying to decide if I will let a man fuck me ( average cock first). I have swallowed loads of cum and think I’m ready for a big load of cum in my ass. Hard thinking about it right now at work. Yes wearing panties to