Closeted Gay Man Stuck With A Wife And Family I Can't Hurt

I am a closeted married man. I have engaged sexually with other men and at times I am so uncomfortable that I have made terrible errors, like engage sexually with a man in our office. It's getting worse, particularly with my desires to see and be around young men in the entertainment district. I think every waiter is gay and I imagine myself making love to them.

Not that a twenty two year old waiter wants anything to do with a 48 year old man.