Over The Edge I Now Admit To Myself That I Have Always Been Gay

I worked at a plant and after work several of us went out for beers. On payday the older men liked going down to the strip joint. I never got anything out of that. Naked women never did anything for me. One of the men, the older group of men in the forties and fifties, gave me a printout of a picture of two men kissing, holding each other's cocks. He pressed me to admit that I liked that, I told him no, but he said yes I did. I took the picture with me, went home and masturbated three times. I licked the cum off my sheets and went to sleep dreaming of a dick in my ass.

I had been fighting these feelings, these fantasies, spending hours watching gay porn, dreaming of kissing another man. I got up, it was after midnight and I got dressed and went out to this part of town and walked around. About 1 I went into this bar and sat alone at the bar. A man walked by outside, I saw him walk by a couple of times and then he came in and sat beside me. We talked about baseball. After another drink he told me it was getting close to closing time and we should go to his hotel.

In his hotel he sucked my cock. After sucking me for a while he got undressed and showed me his cock and said he wanted me show him why I was a born cocksucker. His cock went into an erection as soon as I started sucking him. He asked me if I had a problem with him fucking me without a condom. He assured me he was clean and he knew I was a novice and he liked plugging a virgin but he didn't want to use a condom. I agreed. It was the most amazing experience of my life. I loved every second of it, every fantasy I had came true. I asked him if he would take a picture of his dick in my ass or a video for me to keep as a memory of my first time. He set the phone up on video under us. He let me take pictures of his cock after he pulled out, he took pictures of my asshole with cum coming out.

I went home, it was around 3 and didn't sleep. I went to work the next day and stood around feeling the feeling of his dick in my ass. When I got home after work I emailed the pictures to myself and printed them out and masturbated to them. His completely engorged still mostly erect dick I pinned to the back of my door. The picture of my ass I pinned to my headboard so I could look at it when I masturbated. I went out again and again, even stopped at that bar but never had any luck with anyone picking me up. It wasn't until about six months later that I sucked off a high school boy. He wanted me to fuck him but I refused. I didn't have a condom.