Back With It Started

I had my first sex at 15 inside my 15 year old male cousins butt. He asked for it, actually begged for it and I gave it to him. The first time was in bed, at night about 1am. The next day at 9am I fucked him in the basement. I did it again at 4pm. It was great. Off and on I fucked him over the next couple of years. I once tried to let him fuck me but it hurt too much, and though I couldn't let him fuck me he readily rolled over smearing the vaseline on his ass and my cock to get fucked. I got my first girlfriend around that time, so I had hetero sex with her, in her mouth, in her vag and eventually in her ass too. Through the time from around 18 to 20 I would sometimes go to the adult bookstores with booths when i was in a different, bigger city. I did suck on some cocks but never till they came. I got my cock sucked a lot. I fucked a couple of other men, that I met through friends and work. I still mostly fucked my girlfriends and the odd one nighters that I'd meet.

Through it all, I tried and tried to get fucked but just couldn't. I decided it was time when I was 19 almost 20 and I hired a crossdresser. She was very feminine and had great legs and ass, I wanted to fuck her so bad, but wanted to get fucked first. I eventually got her 6 inches all the way in me by riding on top. After I loosened up she put me in different positions. The best was missionary, looking into her beautiful feminine face, seeing her silky skin, my legs wrapped around her. It was like having a beautiful woman but one with a cock who fucked me. She came, and quite frankly during that week I called back to her place 7 times. I felt well broken in by then, however; it was back home and my cock fucking a couple of girlfriends in all three holes. It was another year before I got the chance to try to get fucked again, and it was out of town in a bar, and a nice looking guy, total man, who wasn't taking no for an answer when his 8 incher very thick , started pushing into me and hurting me. He fucked me full on and didn't care. He even pulled out and pulled off his condom and made me pull up my legs around his back telling me he was going to make me his pregnant bitch.. He fucked me three times that night, not even bothering with the pretext of a condom after that first time.

I walked gingerly back to my hotel, with three realy big loads of cum up my bottom. I could feel it leaking down my pants legs, he kept my underwear as a souvenir. After that, I fucked women, got married, and now many years later, I want to get fucked again. I don't know what the call to it is, but I really want to feel a cock inside me again. I don't know why, I love cumming in my wifes pussy, her mouth, her cute butt, but I want to get a cock. She's even pegged me, and it's not the same.