Dreaming And Wishing For A Gay Grandpa Neighbor

I am a 52 yo straight M wishing I had a gay old grandpa for a nextdoor neighbor. I had never watched gay porn until the COVID lockdown, I was living by myself and was bored and was tired of jacking off to the same porn,so I looked up gay porn and watched a few clips and it got me aroused so I looked for other gay porn and I happen to see old gay men and grandpa porn.
I got an instant hard-on watching those old gay men pounding other old men in the ass!
I ordered me an anal dildo set for beginners and I would slowly inch by inch put it up in my ass,
It was a little painful but it was a pain that hurt but it also felt like some kind of pleasure I was enjoying.
Since that first experience I had in my ass I wanted to see what a real old gay cock would feel like up inside my ass.
So I have been wishing that my dream of an old gay grandpa would move next door or cross my fingers be my neighbor.