Watching My Cousin

When i was 14 my cousin ben who was 16 used to bring a girl from his class home and i used to watch her sucking his dick. She was good he would be moaning and grab her head and cum in her mouth and i couldn't believe how big his dick was.on the 5th time of me spying he caught me but he didn't stop.i just kept thinking he was going to shout at me once we was alone.the time came the girl left and then Ben came into the living room undressed and asked if i enjoyed the show.ben didn't let me answer he came over to me and said now it was my turn.i was a tiny girl and was face to face with a hard dick.i was nervous not because i was afraid but because that was my first time .i remember how hard it was when i held it and the slight moan he gave and just remembered how the girl had done it. slurping and popping noises as i sucked his dick and i had to look at him as i done it.i thought i had done it wrong when ben pulled away but it was to lock the door so we wouldn't be interrupted.ben came back into the room and went to his bag and i seen him take out condoms.i was thinking he never used one with that girl.rolling one on to his dick he turns to me and said im going to fuck you now so take off your clothes and lay back.now i was nervous i layed back with my legs closed and Ben had to move them apart.he told me it's going to hurt a little and he wasn't wrong.he said if it hurts to much he will stop.he took it slow and it hurt but i let him continue then he picked up the pace and before i could ask him to stop he was grunting and slowed down and it was all over.ben couldn't wait to leave and i cleaned myself up before my mum got home.all day the following day i got nothing from him he ignored me in school until i was home and he came round.he knew i was home alone and wanted more.i asked him why he was here and he said he needed to see me his way of saying he wanted sex or me to suck his dick.on the sofa he fucked me and i took it.i was expecting him to leave after like the day before but he didn't.we talked what felt like for hours and then had sex again and to this day nothing has changed.