CD Embarrassment

I am a crossdresser, taking hormones now, will start living fully as a trans woman soon. My boobs are small still, not even enough yet to fill an a cup bra, but they are soft and nice to touch. I was never much in the manhood department, only 4 inches when erect, only my sister, who helped me with my crossdressing, makeup and is helping now, and one other girl saw me naked as a boy. They both said it was small and I never risked the ridicule of letting any other girls, or boys see me fully.

By 18 I was a convincing gurl, thin body, not too tall at 5ft. 8in, indent at the waist, incredible looking legs and bottom. I even risked it a few times not telling boys and went on dates as a full girl. I never let them get their hands between my legs, or under my bra as I wasn't on hormones yet. I knew it was risky, if the guys ever found out that the girl they were making out with, even for 4 boys getting hand jobs and BJs, it would be a beating for sure. Finally one guy I really liked kept coming around, I was blowing him, using my hand, and I wanted to have sex with him but I finally told him. He wasn't shocked at all, in fact he said he suspected after so long dating and not even letting him feel my boobs. That evening after the movie, in his car I let him feel and suck on my little boobs, he didn't mind the size, and really liked it and I loved it. He said that the next night we were going to a really nice hotel, getting a nice room service meal, with wine and champagne and we were making love. He said to bring something sexy to sleep in.

So at 20, I was in a see through babydoll nightie, my smallish boobs easily seen through, my front was tucked in, my hair nicely trimmed down there, you could see I looked like a girl until further inspected. My boyfriend told me to stand up and answer the door the way i was. I did it for some reason, super self-conscious about the room service waiter knowing he could see my body and felt he would know I wasn't a woman. He didn't, or didn't let on, and after we had a nice dinner, we drank champagne and as we took eachothers clothes off, I was lain down on my back, my legs brought up, and lubed I was made love to. He repeated various scenarios of exposure which always made me self conscious, it ranged from my boobs openly showing in a car on the highway, my pants and panties down while tucked in showing my "pussy" to truck drivers, even going to the beach having me wear not my normal one piece but tucked in and small, wearing a bikini in public. Last weekend, he took me to a nude beach and it was all men and women, no one like me no trans people at all. I saw gay men, lesbian women, but . . . He took off my top, and showed my little boobs, which were now almost an A cup so it wasn't too bad, then he pulled down my bikini bottoms and spread my legs, and my now just over 2 inches was on display. I tried to keep tucked in most of the time, but everyone knew and was watching me.

I was so embarrassed, but he made love to me like never before at my apartment after the beach.