No Sex Torture Program

I am now 40's and look like a godess about 14 or have the mind of a clever 31 and body hot as that as well, and I just don't understand this shit how you are expected to fuck but not have a husband or like sex. Have a kid but not actually be loved for your wonderful sexy thin youthful body? and I am like why god? why put other peoples lies in the way of my sex life ? why? the effort I have to go to just to orgasm is fucking stewpod alone masturbating. This is fucking insanity and what sort of rotten scum does this to a good Christian woman anyway who just wants a baby and a loving husband who give good sex and I don't want old men shoved on me or my father or brother. I want good sperm for god sake. All this just started over wanting a baby at 15 jesus who'd have guessed they all wanted to copy a loser like me?