My Past, Hub Found Out

My husband and I met 6 years ago, I was 26 he was 28. He was raised in a strict christian home, very straight laced, but when it came to sex he was up for everything, he was an animal and I loved it. I did find out after we had sex the first time that it was his very first time. He asked me how many men I'd been with and I told him 2. That was such a lie.

I was raised the total opposite of him. A drunk for a father who really didn't care, a mom who was a big drinker herself. Mom kept asking if I or my sister needed birth control, beginning when I was 12. I didn't take her up on it, though quite frankly I was giving older guys (15 to 18) blowjobs and handjobs, letting them feel my tits etc. My dad left us, and my mom would bring home guys and have sex, sometimes so drunk the bedroom door was open still. My sis and I watched her suck, get fucked, buttfucked, titty fucked, even gangfucked. Sneaking in her room we found all kinds of pictures of her having sex with guys and women too. By 13 three guys 17 and 18 got me behind a big brick wall at a church and paid me $10 to strip and show them my body. I hadn't counted on it but one of them put $20 in my hand and pushed me down on my clothes on the ground. The other two spread my legs and the older guy fucked me. Then the others took their turn. The older guy (18) took me to a movie the next evening with a BJ in the car before we went in, and in his backseat he did anal sex to me. Soon having sex was just the normal thing I did. I asked my mom for BC and she took me to the doctors.

So I've been fucking since I was 13, sucking since I was 12, I've been gangbanged by as many as 14 guys at one sitting, and several other times with lesser numbers. I honestly can't say how many different guys have fucked me, gotten sucked or buttfucked me. But to be honest, I'm thinking it's definitely over 150. In college I was the auto date, you dated me and it was automatic that I'd let you fuck me. In college I was introduced to lesbian sex, even several times lesbian orgies with up to 10 of us all naked for a weekend of sex.

The thing is, I lied to my husband, and now he knows. We were punching through some porn sites, specifically wife and girlfriend porn, and some of the boys when I was young posted pictures of me doing all kinds of things. There was a section on one site devoted to my younger self. Hub mentioned and it looked a lot like me, I tried to get off the site, but then he noticed a mark I have on my left foot.

Now he knows, and he is understandably upset. He is totally silent hasn't touched me since, I told him I'd do anything to make it up to him. He wouldn't even talk about it. Last night when he came out of the shower, knowing he'd be nude, I was also. I sat him on the edge of the bed put a paddle in his hand and lain across his lap. His beating didn't stop for 15 minutes. I was crying so much, but I know I deserved it. He pushed me on the floor and told me to get up and get his belt. Then he made me lie on the bed while I got 25 whacks with his belt. On my already red and hot butt it caused three streaks to break the skin. He stopped and in between my crying he told me that was the least I deserved. Then he went to sleep. He let it be known that he was going to give me what I deserve "in spades" anytime he wanted but it would be at least a week of it two to three times a day, then and only then he may use my butt for his satisfaction, but nothing to satisfy me.

I told him fine. I really messed up, I was a total slut when I was young, but am paying for that and lying to him now.