I'm Still A Virgin

So I'm still a virgin, and I'm totally cool with that! Like really, I've given a blowjob once and did one or two things with a girl but like y'know I haven't actually had sex.
I jerk off and all that but I really never put anything big inside me cause it's just super intimidating, I didn't even finger myself for a good while. But whatever I've been horny all the time recently so I've been jerking off a lot and I just (for the first time) tried to use like a hairbrush since I heard a lot of others did and it was good. I'm still like crazy horny but I had to stop because it literally felt too big and I've just been like losing my mind at the idea of getting fucked by some guy bigger than me. I'm 5'3 and weigh about 130 and I fucking love like just tall and heavy guys and I'm all worked up thinking about getting fucked now.
Anyways that was embarrassing, X o x o :)
(also super sorry if this is a bad category for this)